Wonderfully Simple

Ok done... managed to do it =P

Still no good... free web hosting for music ain't easy to find =/ Anyway the song that's playing now is probably gonna be temporary...

Darn. No good... the file got removed =x
I'll see if I can find a solution.

Added music... hope you all like it =P

Hrm... I wanna use a font for the title... but it's a very uncommon font... I have a solution but I've trouble making it work... basically I wanna use a paint program to type it out and save it as a jpg, but I'll need the background to be transparent... which I can't seem to do... Can anyone help me out here?

Ouch.

One word summarises perfectly how my dental surgery went. After coming out I felt oh-so-crappy.

Sore throat, disorientation from the anaesthesia, and a very numb and swollen lower jaw - just some of the after-effects of the operation.
I try to drink water, but my lower lip refuses to listen - it's as limp as crap.
My throat hurts even more from 14 hours without water - just what I need with a numb lower jaw.
Slowly, my head clears - I'm able to think! Wow!
Then slowly I figure out how best to drink water without letting the floor consume more than me.
Success.
The pain subsides, and I feel infinitely better.
Soon after, I get discharged and I'm on my way home...

Well, back at home my mum made some fish porridge for me, which I drank. I couldn't even use the sides of my mouth cos it'd hurt bad... Crappy I tell you... Anyway, after porridge I had my medicine and I napped for an hour... That quirked me up quite a bit... no more numb lower jaw, no more sore throat =) So I guess it's back to normal daily routine minus good food T_T

I think I'm going to do an inquest on the matter yesterday... sounds so formal =x Just going to find out who, what, when...

Sigh. My side of the blog just pales in comparison to Leon's side... *starts crying*... Ah well... I'm supposed to be out somewhere in Aljunied in a church helping out with the night cycling event, but my mum insisted that I stayed home to get some rest before my dental operation tomorrow... just hope everything goes well with the night cycling...

Anyway, before I was dragged home... I found out something... something that I don't think I should post here, and from that you could guess it's pretty personal... Well, it's regarding a somebody, and it's not the same somebody. Turns out... there are people who know... and how they know, I ponder, and wonder. There could only be one source, yet I wonder why it proliferated. =/

Anyway, I think I'm going to sleep now, gotta get up early tomorrow... Goodnight...

Darkened the background, made that white cloud into some corrosive red gas cloud, changed the title. More to come =)

That white patch of stuff in the background is just plain annoying.

Alright now... This is basically the new look of the blog... I know the text is hard to read, but I believe that is a colour issue... erm... right?
Do give suggestions for a blog title, and for areas of improvement... The page isn't exactly done yet... Need to add an actual title, get the font colours and sizes sorted, as well as some introduction for the both of us. By the way, now my posts will be here, while Leon's will be on the right.

Now for the blog proper... Recently my mind's been wandering too far... Stupid thoughts? ...Or fears that are reality? I don't know... There doesn't seem to be a line drawn across the 2... I dunno if I'm just oversensitive and pessimistic whether I'm really facing a problem... I feel detached...

When friends don't seem like friends
When they seem like acquaintances
Is when it can hurt
Is when it can spread gloom
But who is an acquaintance;
Who is a friend?
I can't find the answer,
For I've yet to master
The intricacies of life.
Am I a lonely soul?
One unable to communicate well?
Or just someone everyone loves to hate?
I feel ignored
Yet that's because I might be demanding too much.
Is that right of me?
I ask thee.

Getting the hang of HTML... hehe... started to design the new page already. And I now know how to get 2 different blog columns... was just as I expected =x

Just because my life is not much more interesting than a dustbin's doesn't mean you should go point it out Leon =/ But yea, I do agree that my life is monochromatic, and I lack the literary ability to actually add colour to it in a blog entry. So go ahead and blame me then T_T.

I'm back in the sch's comp lab, with nary a thing to do. Just a few more days to the holidays... then can relax~

Anyway, back to Saturday... (To Leon: Boring text imminent. Close browser now.)
Went to Marina Bay, waited for the better part of an hour for everyone to arrive *cough* which wasn't everyone *cough*, then we headed to the actual place where we were going to dine. Just as we exited the station, I saw my friend and *ahem ahem*... haha... That coincidence alone confirmed something that she tried to deny =P Sorry for the fogged up details there...

Anyway, we continued walking to the bus-stop, but we were waylaid by some guy trying to coerce people to dine at his boss's restaurant. We discussed a little, and soon we were on our way to food =D~ They even had a bus to fetch us there. Gosh. This is how tough the competition has become over at Marina South... at least the consumer benefits from all the added service =) Econs at work... although my interest in that commonsensical subject has dwindled dramatically. (I realised I'm writing alot of asides. Sheesh. Forgive me yet again.)

Dinner progressed pretty well... and the food wasn't disappointing at all =D We talked and joked and laughed all the way... Oh yeah... the night sky sure provided us with ample opportunities to comment about Russell's skin colour (<- hot topic of discussion). We took pics using Johnson's camera, and some were really hilarious. Anyway, soon our bellies were bulging and hungers satiated, so it was time to bring out the cake. In all it's glory, we sang a birthday song for ourselves and for Sean as well. Glad to say that our class was together for once. Haha... After that... we hung around for a little while longer, then started to disperse... some went to play pool, the girls waited for one of their parents to fetch them, while me, Yi Chai and Min Yao walked to the MRT, I would have stayed to play pool, but I didn't really want to spend more money than I already did, and staying over at Sean's place wasn't much of an option either, since I had church the next morning =( The night ended there... a night that will live on as the day that 05/03 had a dinner together...

Sunday came, Sunday went without much happening, except for the evening when me, Russell and our dear Leon went to play LAN games. WC3 took up an hour and ended in a pretty dumb manner, but the most enjoyable part was when we played Half-Life. No, not CS. Half-Life. What can I say, snarks are heckuva fun. Well, I, having strayed from the path of FPSes, got pretty much owned by the 2 of them. But we had many good laughs at the myriad of situations that popped up. Most of them centred about snarks and me exterminating them =/ By the time we ended, it was 10.30 at night, so we bade farewell, and that was the end of the week... I was out for more time than I was in during the weekend (I mentioned this previously, right?).

On Sunday night... when I got home and went online, I managed to tell someone something that I was afraid to say, for the repercussions might have worsened current circumstances. Apprehension plagued me after that, but soon I was glad that I did what I did... Things were going back on track thanks to that little message I sent. And I'm happy about that. (Again, sorry for the secrecy. Privacy for both parties should be respected IMO.)

The past few days have been the normal fare, with school taking centrestage, and boredom, the lighting. Well, I don't know if boredom is the word actually. All the time we say we're bored, but it seems that we say it... for the sake of saying it. We're just too used to the notions of routine that we don't appreciate the small things that unfurl in our daily lives. Friends, family and commmunity pepper our lives with so much flavouring, that we really shouldn't be saying that we're bored. Yet we do. At least, I do. Why? For a lack of things to say? Or because we just don't think that the small things are worth mentioning?

Sheesh. Talk about a grand hypocrisy. I just said I'm bored and I'm now saying all this -_-.

All in all... this period of time has been very eventful... and I guess I have mixed feelings on all that has transpired.

~The end of His Boring Life, part 5~

i'm not going to bother posting just yet, cuz i know that whatever brilliance i pen down will be obliterated by bear's impending part 5 of His Boring Life.

Quit whining Leon =x Well anyway I'll see what I can do about having 2 columns... Guo Ming's blog managed to do that, I don't see why we can't. Anyway, I'll probably ask him how he did it if need be.

Bear, i realised the problem with the blog... the text give you a headache. Its horribly monotonus and boring. Plus, you just religated my nice verse into the lower depths! Should try to have two coloums the write in... one for you and one for me.

I've decided to pick up HTML to beautify this gaudy looking collage I call a webpage. Hopefully by the end of the holidays I'd have managed to come up with something at least presentable.

Anyway, back to Saturday. Soccer, followed by going down to AMK central to get a cake for dinner later. We got a chocolate truffle cake, which looked good. When we ate it later that night, the taste sure matched up to our expectations... it was good =D~~~ ...Ok, before I start dreaming of Cakeland, let me move on. Me and Chris returned to AJ to watch the talentime... It was great I tell you... the performances were surprisingly good. The winning band consisted of an electric guitarist, an electric bass guitarist and a drummer.. they played/sang Billie Jean, Slide and erm... I can't recall what's the last song. They didn't play the full songs though... just parts of them transitioning into each other. The music they played was AWESOME, bringing in cheers and applause from all over the auditorium (where the event was held). The vocal category was won by a group from the choir (duh), but the other performances were definitely noteworthy. The group sang 2 songs A Capella... One was by a boyband and I just can't seem to recall the names of the songs grrrr... There was a girl who sang solo... and she was a siren. Pity that she didn't win. I thought she would =( Yeap. Oh yeah, 2 guys from another class also entered the finals with an original composition of theirs. It sounded very good! The lyrics were pretty catchy too... I must say they did a VERY good job with the song! Speaking of original compositions... I'm quite surprised I didn't get to hear the song that won a songwriting contest... What a loss... Ah well, other things at the talentime included some guest performances... One was this stand-up comedy put up by 2 students... Pretty entertaining, and it's not hard to see a future in showbiz for them in the future haha... Another performance was by 2 guitarists... They strummed 2 pieces... one was a slow piece called The Bard's Song, which was soothing and well, it really gave you the feeling of sitting in an olden inn listening to a bard sing of stories of great (mis)adventure. The other piece was rockish, and it showed off just how nimble their fingers were. I was like "...WHOA!" when one of them started playing really quickly. The last guest performance was by 2 teachers, one playing the guitar (it seems to be such a common instrument -_- I see it everywhere I tell you), and the other sang. The voice was pretty good... All in all, the whole talentime was a great success~

Next up: Dinner @ Marina South. Tomorrow k? Lol this is turning out to be some 5 part special haha.

Mucho Gracias

The weekend now past hath been life's finest.
Though poor in sleep and physical spirit,
My tongue hath seldom seen such easy speech,
Nor that my mind, such painless a discourse
Nor that my heart, such sweet and soothing balm
That were to remedy bitter scars there.
Never hath one spoke the easy marraige
Of wit and concern, of spirited speech
and open frankness.
Of care and concern.
I thank thee much, for thy time and person,
May that they always grow, never worsen.

But no more on that,
tis shall be pursued
at better time and place, and discretion.
with lesser of what there is so much here.
Though sleep and other side tracks assail me oft,
tis is one matter infinitely dear,
to which i hope see mature in future
none too distant.
Nay, i'd much see such birth on the morrow,
but something insinuios binds me back,
to this meandering, lost direction.
Fie! O Fie! Cursed confused fool that is I.

Well.... that should give Shakespeare something to roll over in his grave in... erg, too much hamlet.

Anyways, i'll save all of you from head aches by writing the rest in prose. I gues iambic pantermeter isnt' everyone's cup of tea. Cts are over so school is now the tensed stretched wire upon which tension is ever so slowly increased before finally snapping. The nail biting void of time betwen the exam's end and the release of the results prove to be a terribly and unecessarily stresfful on, to which fools pull hair and strings. Bought a concord chocolate cake for nicola, much loved bitching partner, on the account of hre birthday today... once again, here's to many many more of whatever we have.

My spleen runs dry and my keyboard quietens.

So much for blogging yesterday. I was out for more time than I was in during the weekend. Sheesh. I ought to feel guilty about that... I'm now in the school's com lab, with nothing much to do cos it's raining =( So I'm here, fufilling my oath to blog.

Let's see... Saturday... out for 16.5 hrs as I said. Maths test in the morning, which I don't suppose I'll do too well for, since I was quite panicky and couldn't do quite a bit due to that. It didn't help that I had no idea when the test was ending, so that added on to my hysteria. Eeks. Anyway, that's that... Me and chris proceeded to slack around in this same com lab for a while, checking Utopia and playing miniclip games. By the way, this activity has become our favourite pastime during our breaks. We seem to be very sad souls having nothing else to do, or rather, we're compelled by the allure of the com labs to go there. WE'RE SLAVES!!! Erm... ok... that was my inner, enslaved mind voicing out. Sorry about that.

So after that we proceeded to play soccer with the rest after they came out from the econs test. It seemed a pretty harrowing experience for them lol. Most common response was that they didn't know what to write at all. Good thing I decided to drop that forsaken subject =)

Bleh, think I'll continue when I get home. A game of Hearts beckons.

Bleh... guess the time is prime for me to update this... yet, fatigue bears it's concerted assault on me, and I'm unable to blog currently, having been out for 16.5 hours today, and now struggling to even think cohesively. I was dozing off in the shower just now. That's a testament to the extent of my fatigue. Ah well, just to let everyone know... things are pretty fine... talking to friends sure helps... I guess I've weathered the storm. Will blog about today tomorrow (or technically, later today).

Bear dude, hang in there.

Heart of Gold


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Sigh. That's all I can say about this emotional rollercoaster ride I've been having. Nothing's improved by the looks of it, and I'm still left hoping for the better... and it seems... hope is but the only thing I can confide in for now. Sigh. Each passing day brings about renewed desolation... and sometimes it just prompts me to think if I'm doing the right thing... has Time done enough of it's part? Or has it not? I guess divine intervention can only go so far... I'll probably have to carry on with the repair works on the bridge by myself for now...

I've written the letter... which I hoped I never would have to write... but now I guess that hope's turned into dust, and the new hope is that it'll never see a use... but that hope's not too bright either. 2 more weeks will ordain the decision... and 2 more weeks would have been enough time by then... I hope.

The Trouble With Love Is - Kelly Clarkson

Love can be a many splendid thing
Can't deny the joy it brings
A dozen roses, diamond rings
Dreams for sale and fairy tales

It'll make you hear a symphony
And you just want the world to see
But like a drug that makes you blind
It'll fool ya every time

The trouble with love is
It can tear you up inside
Make your heart believe a lie
It's stronger than your pride

The trouble with love is
It doesn't care how fast you fall
And you can't refuse the call
See, you've got no say at all

Now I was once a fool, it's true
I played the game by all the rules
But now my world's a deeper blue
I'm sadder but I'm wiser too

I swore I'd never love again
I swore my heart would never mend
Said love wasn't worth the pain
But then I hear it call my name

The trouble with love is
It can tear you up inside
Make your heart believe a lie
It's stronger than your pride

The trouble with love is
It doesn't care how fast you fall
And you can't refuse the call
See, you've got no say at all

Every time I turn around
I think I've got it all figured out
My heart keeps callin' and I keep on fallin'
Over and over again

This sad story always ends the same
Me standin' in the pourin' rain
It seems no matter what I do
It tears my heart in two

The trouble with love is
It can tear you up inside
Make your heart believe a lie
It's stronger than your pride

The trouble with love is
(It's in your heart, it's in your soul)
It doesn't care how fast you fall
(You're losing all control)
And you can't refuse the call
See, you've got no say at all

The trouble with love is
It can tear you up inside
Make your heart believe a lie