Wonderfully Simple

Sunday, August 31, 2003

I guess this comes mojo late, but as many people may know, my life has been in the gutter for quite a while. But, circumstance has yet again called me forth to joing to masses of goth-wannabes recording thier pathetic lives on blog.spot. Yes, i'm a bitter man right now.

Right now, my chest is on fire. The reason being that the world cannot get any more cruel. Under the insitence of many people, i finaly made a trip down to the doctors for some acne treatment to make some of the moon craters on my face become something more appealing. In full confidence, the doctor told me that i will be pimple-less in less than three months. To be finally rid of the bane of my existence, the horror i see every morning in the mirror, the things that block my peipheral vision everynow and then, the growths that treaten to seal up my nasal passage... To say the least i was rather excited (although on retrospect i would miss bursting those little fellas... ah the joy.). But no! It seemed that fate would rather me looking ugly. Of all the cruel things that could happen, i realised that i was allergic to the anti-biotics he gave me.
There, i said it... now once more with feeling.

THE CURSED WORLD DEEMED IT FIT TO BE UTTERLY UNFAIR AND DOMMED ME WITH THESE CANCEROUS GROWTHS ON MY FACE, BECAUSE I AM ALLERGIC TO THE LOUSY PIMLE ANTI-BOITICS WHICH THAT DOTARD OF A DOCTOR, WHOSE GENITALIA SHOULD BE SPLAYED OVER HIS STUPID SIMLING FACE, WHOSE ENTRAILS SHOULD BE SMEARED ON THE WALLS OF HIS DINGY LITTLE OFFICE, WHOSE....

Ah... now with that done, i now currently feel excruiciating pain whenever i swallow anything. Food, water, porraige.. even saliva. In fact breathing too hard hurts too. And so, i pray that all will forgive me for being ever so slightly annoyed. So, being stuck at home with my chest feeling less than perfect, i figured it was time to drop by for a nice long bitch fest over here. And horrors of horrors, i realise that religious music is enroaching on my little peice of the internet... o the joy -_-.

Speaking of bible hippies, i went to a church carnival at ACS boarding school the other night - most reluctantly i assure you, accompanying my sister joan who always has nothing better to do than to make my life a misery. At anyrate, the first thing i heard upon entering that place was gospel music withguitar accompanyment. To top it all off, they didn't sell chainsaws there so i could shut that STUPID guitar troop up. Ended up paying them 20 dollars (my aunts money) to make them shut up. Ofcourse, they just happily glazed over, mouthed something about seeing the light, and starting singing again. Eww. On a happy note, i got to use fahy's (thats my lit lecturer btw) insult that night...

me (after drinking some hooch they had there) "Ooo the happy colors!"
Some anymous churhc poseur "Friend (don't you just hate it when they address you as "friend"), i think you've been drinking too much"
Me "and you sir, are ugly. And you know the difference between you and me? Tomorrow morning, i will wake up with a headache, but feeling quite sober. You however, will still be ugly"

I must say that i probably was rather tired and annoyed (drinking anything hurts now) to have insulted him like that... but heh, made my night. Love you Fahy.. crazy irishmen are gusu.

Anyways, a question to gm and sarah when you read this... do women like cunnilingus? I erm had a wierd dream about von and told her about it. She said that cunnilingus is disgusting.

Saturday, August 30, 2003

Heh... its early mornin! got a maths test starting in about an hour, followed by a physics test. and to my not-so-much horror, i found tt my notes were all in sch. haha. talk about "i didn't study!"... at least i have an excuse! lol... hmm... dun think i'll have problems for maths but i think physics may be a teeny bit troublesome. Well, yesterday was great. i went back to cat high to see moi teachers. Mr Heng seems very stressed over his class. haha... i wonder if we were as bad... he brandished this stack of MCs from them as a testament to their attitude... well... as he said... they're simple people who are just a little playful... they seem so carefree heh... *dreams about when I was like that*... oh well... those days are over, and so is my time now. gdbye!

Love Song For A Savior - Jars Of Clay

In open fields of wild flowers,
She breathes the air and flies away
She thanks her Jesus for the daisies and the roses,
in no simple language.
Someday she'll understand the meaning of it all
He's more than the laughter or the stars in the heavens
As close as a heartbeat or a song on her lips.
Someday she'll trust Him and learn how to see Him.
Someday He'll call her and she will come running,
and fall in His arms and the tears will fall down and she'll pray,

"I want to fall in love with You." x4

She wants to say...

Sitting silent wearing Sunday best.
The sermon echoes through the walls.
A great salvation through it calls to the people,
who stare into nowhere, and can't feel the chains on their souls.

He's more than the laughter or the stars in the heavens.
As close as a heartbeat or a song on our lips.
Someday we'll trust Him and learn how to see Him.
Someday He'll call us and we will come running,
and fall in His arms and the tears will fall down and we'll pray,

"I want to fall in love with you" 4x

"la la la" 7x

It seems too easy to call you Savior,
Not close enough to call you God.
So as I sit and think of words I can mention
to show my devotion...

"I want to fall in love with You."
(slowly fade out)

Friday, August 22, 2003

It's been long... and well i think i've got pretty much to write abt... lets start with... today! frydi-diedy-day... lessons apart, it was pretty fine... met xing yi in sch for e first time heh... b4 that however... i was in the auditorium for mass civics... it was an open forum discussion with the principal. Only one issue was talked about tho... and its an oft argued but concurrently irrefragable topic... "Timetable's too long for 4A students... cut it short". Well, at first i thought it was just a very stupid question to ask... but after the principal's response... i felt very strongly against him...

First off... the question was asked cos in comparison to other jcs (in particular the better jcs), the timetable was horrendous for us students... the principal's rebuttal? One that showed no confidence in us IMO. "Other JCs have shorter timetables because their students are better... they have 100+ 6 pters, while we have less than 10. So, we need more time in school so that we can monitor you better. If we shortened your timetable, would you spend more time studying at home, or out in orchard rd with your friends? If you can't take the stress of taking 4As, then don't. The only reason why you should is to aim for a scholarship. Otherwise, you should just take 3As and enjoy your study."

1) The principal assumes that more time spent in school = better grades, which, imo, is very, VERY narrow.
2) He thinks the only viable reason for taking 4As is for scholarships - he doesn't consider personal reasons, or the fact that some of us want broader choices for uni courses.
3) So what if we entered with weaker aggregates? Does it matter so much? I think that attitude is more important than aptitude. If one has a desire to study, nothing short of aceing his examinations will stop him from being a constant inquisitor of teachers. If we don't want to study, similarly the only way to get us to do so would be to bind us, force our eyes open and put a textbook in front of us. Making us sit in school for hours on end won't help; it'll only compound the hate. The way out? Make us realise that we should be accountable to society and family. School's tried to explain it to us, but i think the school needs to work doubly hard if they are ever going to get anything into us. How they're going to do that? I'm not the school's management. Don't ask me.

Sidetrack: Mrs Ang gave my class a rather good talk today... on the same topic of accountability... she talked about how we really shouldn't be studying just for the sake of studying, but rather for our parents and society at large. about how she's proud that her kids are very responsible. About how she tries her best even when things seem to take all directions but hers, just so that she can deliver her lesson. For that, i applaud her.

4)In a class, there's bound to be people who are slower than the rest, and others that are faster. Those that are faster would definitely be ok on their own, but the same can't be said for the weaker ones. In a lesson, the teacher cannot attend to personal queries, as he has a lesson to teach. The victim? Not difficult to guess. If timetables were shortened, the teacher would be able to spend more time coaching the weaker students personally. After all, if the majority of the students do not need any assistance, the teacher really doesn't need to do anything for them, other than supervising their work. The stronger students can get enrichment on their own if their thirst drives them to do so. Of course, this is assuming that the class indeed can keep up and understand the ongoing lessons in the first place. If they can't, by all means go ahead with the lesson. But the lesson should be made optional for us as a class. Either all or none turns up. Kinda like an extra lesson model, just that they aren't exactly "extra"

In fact, before this question was asked by a then-foolish soul, i didn't think that the timetable was too long. It seemed ok. Now that i've delved deeper, i realised there's only one reason why i've become so accustomed to it. I've been exposed to the flawed system too much, to the point that it seems perfectly fine to me. Something like acclimatization or desensitization. Well, i'm glad that this talk was held; if not i'd still be in the matrix the school has successfully enslaved us in.

The Day You Went Away - M2M
{VERSE 1}
Well I wonder could it be
When I was dreaming 'bout you baby
You were dreaming of me
Call me crazy, call me blind
To still be suffering is stupid after all of this time

{PRE - CHORUS 1}
Did I lose my love to someone better
And does she love you like I do
I do, you know I really really do

Well hey
So much I need to say
Been lonely since the day
The day you went away
So sad but true
For me there's only you
Been crying since the day
The day you went away

{VERSE 2}
I remember date and time
September twenty second
Sunday twenty five after nine
In the doorway with your case
No longer shouting at each other
There were tears on our faces

{PRE - CHORUS 2}
And we were letting go of something special
Something we'll never have again
I know, I guess I really really know

The day you went away
The day you went away

{PRE - CHORUS 1}

{BRIDGE}
Why do we never know what we've got 'til it's gone
How could I carry on
The day you went away
Cause I've been missing you so much I have to say
Been crying since the day
The day you went away

The day you went away
The day you went away

Sunday, August 17, 2003

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Friday, August 01, 2003

Bleh... school's bogging me down... haven't got back in the mood of doing work. as such i'm STILL lagging after so long. lol. i wonder when i'll ever get back to the mood i had in cj (of all places one might ask). all i've been doing once i hit home is to switch on the monitor of my com (which has been on for 5 consecutive days already), and then i stay on till i sleep. sheesh. wad's wrong wif me.

anyway... now i stand at a crossroads...