Dang Ni Gu Dan Ni Hui Xiang Qi Shui - Xiao Hu Dui
Somehow, this song induces lachrimonal tendencies in me...
Somehow, this song induces lachrimonal tendencies in me...
Saturday, February 21, 2004
You are Carbuncle! Rather than attacking, you help
protect party members from taking damage.
You're always there when you're needed, and
you're a cutie to boot
What Final Fantasy summon are you?
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Yawn... borin' Saturday afternoon plagued by an itch that stubbornly refuses to loosen its stranglehold on me... Can't even go out cos of that... chances are that I'd end up as some spectacle drawing stares from all over... So I'm STUCK at home, with NOTHING to do... besides homework that is... not that I've done it at home recently anyway...
It's been a week since that glimpse into what wasn't to be... and unfortunately I still can't let go... *sigh* Think I never will though haha... it's probably something I wanna keep... This week has been eventful... an emotional rollercoaster ride I'd say...
I've Never Been To Me - Charlene (Cover version by S.H.E)
Hey lady, you lady, cursing at your life
You're a discontented mother
And a regimented wife
I've no doubt you dream about the things you never do
But I wish someone would talk to me
Like I.. wanna talk to you
Ooh, I've been to Georgia, and California, and anywhere I could run
Took the hand of a preacher man
And we.. made love in the sun
But I've ran out of places and friendly faces
Because I had to be free
I've been to paradise
But I've.. never been to me
Please lady, please lady, don't just walk away
'Cause I have this need to tell you
Why I'm all alone today
I can see so much of me
Still living in your eyes
Won't you share a part
Of a weary heart
That has.. lived a million lives
Ooh I've been to Nice
And the isle of Greece where they sip champagne on a yacht
I've moved like Harlo in Monte Carlo and showed them what I've got
I've been undressed by kings, and I've seen some things
That a woman ain't supposed to see
I've been to paradise
But I've never been to me
Hey, you know what paradise is?
It's a lie
A fantasy we created about people and places
As we like them to be
But you know what truth is?
iI's that little baby you're holding
And it's that man you fought with this morning
The same one you are gonna make love to tonight
That's truth, that's love
Sometimes I've been to crying for unborn children
That might have made me complete
But I, I took the sweet life and never knew I'd be bitter from the sweet
I've spent my life exploring the subtle whoring that caused too much to be free
I've been to paradise
Never been to me
I've been to paradise
But I've never been to me
Ohh... Yeah yeah yeah
It's been a week since that glimpse into what wasn't to be... and unfortunately I still can't let go... *sigh* Think I never will though haha... it's probably something I wanna keep... This week has been eventful... an emotional rollercoaster ride I'd say...
I've Never Been To Me - Charlene (Cover version by S.H.E)
Hey lady, you lady, cursing at your life
You're a discontented mother
And a regimented wife
I've no doubt you dream about the things you never do
But I wish someone would talk to me
Like I.. wanna talk to you
Ooh, I've been to Georgia, and California, and anywhere I could run
Took the hand of a preacher man
And we.. made love in the sun
But I've ran out of places and friendly faces
Because I had to be free
I've been to paradise
But I've.. never been to me
Please lady, please lady, don't just walk away
'Cause I have this need to tell you
Why I'm all alone today
I can see so much of me
Still living in your eyes
Won't you share a part
Of a weary heart
That has.. lived a million lives
Ooh I've been to Nice
And the isle of Greece where they sip champagne on a yacht
I've moved like Harlo in Monte Carlo and showed them what I've got
I've been undressed by kings, and I've seen some things
That a woman ain't supposed to see
I've been to paradise
But I've never been to me
Hey, you know what paradise is?
It's a lie
A fantasy we created about people and places
As we like them to be
But you know what truth is?
iI's that little baby you're holding
And it's that man you fought with this morning
The same one you are gonna make love to tonight
That's truth, that's love
Sometimes I've been to crying for unborn children
That might have made me complete
But I, I took the sweet life and never knew I'd be bitter from the sweet
I've spent my life exploring the subtle whoring that caused too much to be free
I've been to paradise
Never been to me
I've been to paradise
But I've never been to me
Ohh... Yeah yeah yeah
Friday, February 20, 2004
Relief
Finally... today all my worries were dispelled by a simple gesture... Things weren't as bad as I had thought them up to be. Now I'm feeling fine again =)
Though... I still can't help but wonder if it was because I was too late... Nevertheless, this thought is the product of idle musing, and is infinitely more insignificant than the one that was cleared today.
Taken from my friend's diary:
The Rose
Some say love, it is a river
that drowns the tender reed.
Some say love, it is a razor
that leaves your soul to bleed.
Some say love, it is a hunger,
an endless aching need.
I say love, it is a flower,
and you, its only seed.
It's the heart afraid of breaking
that never learns to dance.
It's the dream afraid of waking
that never takes the chance.
It's the one who won't be taken,
who cannot seem to give,
and the soul afraid of dyin'
that never learns to live.
When the night has been too lonely
and the road has been too long,
and you think that love is only
for the lucky and the strong,
just remember in the winter
far beneath the bitter snows
lies the seed that with the sun's love
in the spring becomes the rose.
Finally... today all my worries were dispelled by a simple gesture... Things weren't as bad as I had thought them up to be. Now I'm feeling fine again =)
Though... I still can't help but wonder if it was because I was too late... Nevertheless, this thought is the product of idle musing, and is infinitely more insignificant than the one that was cleared today.
Taken from my friend's diary:
The Rose
Some say love, it is a river
that drowns the tender reed.
Some say love, it is a razor
that leaves your soul to bleed.
Some say love, it is a hunger,
an endless aching need.
I say love, it is a flower,
and you, its only seed.
It's the heart afraid of breaking
that never learns to dance.
It's the dream afraid of waking
that never takes the chance.
It's the one who won't be taken,
who cannot seem to give,
and the soul afraid of dyin'
that never learns to live.
When the night has been too lonely
and the road has been too long,
and you think that love is only
for the lucky and the strong,
just remember in the winter
far beneath the bitter snows
lies the seed that with the sun's love
in the spring becomes the rose.
Thursday, February 19, 2004
Since then, not a single time has passed where I could look or think of her without turning away to try to take my mind off. Wounds may be deep... but they heal... and that's happening... the equally enigmatic concept of Time can do wonders... and I'm leaving it to Time and The One up there to help me... and her... My hope right now is that the situation could be rewound to a previous status... I might need to live with the regret if not...
Thanks to everyone who's been helping or talking to me, including you, Leon, and Sara... and no, computer game therapy doesn't exactly work for me... momentary escapades never work... at least, that's what I think. But thanks for the suggestion anyway.
Only Time - Enya
Who can say
Where the road goes
Where the day flows
- Only time
Who can say why your heart sighs
as your love flies
-Only time
And who can say why your heart cries
when your love lies
-Only time
Who can say when the roads meet
that love might be
in your heart
And who can say
when the day sleeps
if the night keeps
all your heart
Night keeps all your heart
Who can say if your love grows
as your heart shows
-Only time
And who can say
Where the road goes
Where the day flows,
-Only time
Who knows-only time
Who knows-only time.....
Thanks to everyone who's been helping or talking to me, including you, Leon, and Sara... and no, computer game therapy doesn't exactly work for me... momentary escapades never work... at least, that's what I think. But thanks for the suggestion anyway.
Only Time - Enya
Who can say
Where the road goes
Where the day flows
- Only time
Who can say why your heart sighs
as your love flies
-Only time
And who can say why your heart cries
when your love lies
-Only time
Who can say when the roads meet
that love might be
in your heart
And who can say
when the day sleeps
if the night keeps
all your heart
Night keeps all your heart
Who can say if your love grows
as your heart shows
-Only time
And who can say
Where the road goes
Where the day flows,
-Only time
Who knows-only time
Who knows-only time.....
Wednesday, February 18, 2004
" Time to move on with life" is what I tell myself to do. But when circumstances present themselves... I am yet again compelled, by a force unbeknownst to me, to abandon such an attitude... and slink back into the pit of misery which I had made by and for myself... I languish in it, overwhelmed by my very emotions which have chosen to betray me. The consequential battle for dominance between my heart and mind that erupted left the battlefield scarred. There's nothing I can change... but I wish that the aftermath of my actions could have yielded less... uncomfortable... results...
Yet, I know that life must go on... A philosophy to life which I decided to adopt ages ago, and one I hope I'll never forget. I will endure.
Heaven Knows - Rick Price
She's always on my mind,
From the time I wake up
'till I close my eyes
She's everywhere I go
She's all I know
'Though she's so far away
It's just keeps getting stronger
Every day
And even now she's gone
I'm still holding on
So tell me where do I start
'cause it's breaking my heart
Don't wanna let her go
(Chorus)
Maybe my love will come back some day
Only heaven knows
And maybe our hearts will find their way
Only heaven knows
And all i can do is hope and pray
'cause heaven knows
My friends keep telling me
That if you really love her
You've gotta set her free
And if she returns in kind
I'll know she's mine
So tell me where do I start
'cause it's breaking my heart
Don't wanna let her go
(Chorus)
Why I live in despair
'cause while awake or dreaming
I know she's never there
And all the time I act so brave
I'm shaking inside
Why does it hurt me so...
(Chorus)
Heaven knows...
Yet, I know that life must go on... A philosophy to life which I decided to adopt ages ago, and one I hope I'll never forget. I will endure.
Heaven Knows - Rick Price
She's always on my mind,
From the time I wake up
'till I close my eyes
She's everywhere I go
She's all I know
'Though she's so far away
It's just keeps getting stronger
Every day
And even now she's gone
I'm still holding on
So tell me where do I start
'cause it's breaking my heart
Don't wanna let her go
(Chorus)
Maybe my love will come back some day
Only heaven knows
And maybe our hearts will find their way
Only heaven knows
And all i can do is hope and pray
'cause heaven knows
My friends keep telling me
That if you really love her
You've gotta set her free
And if she returns in kind
I'll know she's mine
So tell me where do I start
'cause it's breaking my heart
Don't wanna let her go
(Chorus)
Why I live in despair
'cause while awake or dreaming
I know she's never there
And all the time I act so brave
I'm shaking inside
Why does it hurt me so...
(Chorus)
Heaven knows...
Tuesday, February 17, 2004
Hope. Anticipation. Possibilites. Uncertainty. Doubt. All this is encompassed by the notion we know as prediction. It fills us with hope of possible things good. But it leaves us wondering about the other side of the coin. Nothing is certain about this other face. The very existence of it stirs doubt in us.
It shears right apart any hope that was still foolish enough to manifest itself. A sliver of hope could be all that one needs to go on... but even the sliver cannot survive when the abyss swallows everything within its deathly grasp... The abyss, we know as reality.
Thanks to Sean today anyway.
It shears right apart any hope that was still foolish enough to manifest itself. A sliver of hope could be all that one needs to go on... but even the sliver cannot survive when the abyss swallows everything within its deathly grasp... The abyss, we know as reality.
Thanks to Sean today anyway.
Well, you would think that having to make the toughest decision of your entire life, geting steam rolled in a debate tourneyment, torn into two with intra-CCA politics, living in fear of the whim of a lousy teacher who resembles a pufferfish, and on top of all of that, having a couple insisting your a malay of all things.... would be a just cause for a long long abscence from blogging. But no, since everyone clearly expects me to bounce back up like some plastic toy with a creepy smile on my face, and then do some bad re-endition of a ricky martin song - in the name of cheap on line entertainment, i drag myself back here. (Well, i was very bored too.)
I spent my valentines day as a free single loser (as opposed to an enslaved attched loser) getting the verbal crap beaten out of me in NUS. Our luck beign as good as it is, out debating team managed to get into matches against both AC and RJ, who by happy coincidence happen to be the top two schools in the match up. Needless so say, the word flattened comes to mind. Although i must add that we did put up a rather spirited resistence in being flattened... like how a fruit tella sweet resists your jaws crushing down on it before just becoming a gooey mess. After that dreary buisness, i did happen to haveto good fortune of finally finding a copy of beyond good and evil for the x-box, and spent the reast of valentines reaquianting myself with the lost love of gaming. I would add more now... but i'm suddenly very bored.
p.s. Bear, the reason why you are feeeling crap is because you've got your hand stuck up the wrong hole in your anatomy. Your nose is on your face, so dig there.
I spent my valentines day as a free single loser (as opposed to an enslaved attched loser) getting the verbal crap beaten out of me in NUS. Our luck beign as good as it is, out debating team managed to get into matches against both AC and RJ, who by happy coincidence happen to be the top two schools in the match up. Needless so say, the word flattened comes to mind. Although i must add that we did put up a rather spirited resistence in being flattened... like how a fruit tella sweet resists your jaws crushing down on it before just becoming a gooey mess. After that dreary buisness, i did happen to haveto good fortune of finally finding a copy of beyond good and evil for the x-box, and spent the reast of valentines reaquianting myself with the lost love of gaming. I would add more now... but i'm suddenly very bored.
p.s. Bear, the reason why you are feeeling crap is because you've got your hand stuck up the wrong hole in your anatomy. Your nose is on your face, so dig there.
Monday, February 16, 2004
Love is...
Love. It is probably a contender for the least understood concept... it is an enigma that eludes research... it is the proponent for irrational thought... it is the drive which propels us to do great things... it is a paradox unexplicable by Man. It, is love.
Love can leave people feeling more down than they ever have. It has the power to sway people's emotions and temper from extreme, to extreme. It can bring untold amounts of worry, and brings forth a lingering cloud of doubt. It resurfaces thoughts and feelings we would have wanted never to come to know of again. Those caught in the web of love are haunted by the omnipresence of a particular individual in their minds. They cannot escape. Any attempt to forget brings about even more thoughts... Love is the specter of depression.
Love can make people feel as though they had visited the heavens; as though they were joy incarnate. People do great things in the name of love, love for a desired one. People do small things in the name of love, love for a desired one. The magnitude is not of matter. What matters, is that they have done something. That memory stays forever, a happy reminiscence. Love an expression of affection of the highest order. It is the culmination of what some live for. Through love, we feel more complete as a person, having experienced firsthand what it is from others... Love is the emissary of joy.
Love is... what you make it to be.
Love is... Corinthians 13:4-7
P.S To everybody who actually visits, PLEASE tag...
Love. It is probably a contender for the least understood concept... it is an enigma that eludes research... it is the proponent for irrational thought... it is the drive which propels us to do great things... it is a paradox unexplicable by Man. It, is love.
Love can leave people feeling more down than they ever have. It has the power to sway people's emotions and temper from extreme, to extreme. It can bring untold amounts of worry, and brings forth a lingering cloud of doubt. It resurfaces thoughts and feelings we would have wanted never to come to know of again. Those caught in the web of love are haunted by the omnipresence of a particular individual in their minds. They cannot escape. Any attempt to forget brings about even more thoughts... Love is the specter of depression.
Love can make people feel as though they had visited the heavens; as though they were joy incarnate. People do great things in the name of love, love for a desired one. People do small things in the name of love, love for a desired one. The magnitude is not of matter. What matters, is that they have done something. That memory stays forever, a happy reminiscence. Love an expression of affection of the highest order. It is the culmination of what some live for. Through love, we feel more complete as a person, having experienced firsthand what it is from others... Love is the emissary of joy.
Love is... what you make it to be.
Love is... Corinthians 13:4-7
P.S To everybody who actually visits, PLEASE tag...
Sunday, February 15, 2004
THE BLOG LIVES AGAIN!!!
(Though this writer may disappoint those looking for Leon's literary flair with which he describes his wacky life in such a flowing manner.)
Ressurected from a dormant state... =) I guess Vday was reason enuff to warrant it...
Well... the better part of it was spent roaming the sidewalks of the bustling city area with my friend... going from shopping centre to shopping centre in quest of a present for later use =P Call it last minute shopping if you have to... But I did get the job done =) Managed to lay my hands on a smaller replica of myself (a teddy bear. Just in case anyone thought I cloned myself.), and some roses at an affordable, non-cutthroat price... Met some friends (and their respective significant others) on the streets as well... great trip overall =)
Ah well... the shopping part was concluded by a trip to Tampines cos I didn't have anywhere to go 'cept tag along with my friend who went to look for her friend... and at Tampines of all places, when we were to head back to town later... negotiations with that friend to meet in town instead obviously didn't go quite well -_-" So well... Tampines... ate at Yoshinoya... ate crepe... walked around like some mindless zombie (not mention having to endure the amplified crappiness of not one, but TWO craptalkers... the horror... THE HORROR!!!), then headed back to town... Talk about a HUGE waste of time... in the end... when I ended up back in town... I was left with around 10 minutes or so to stick around before having to head East again -_-
Well, shall write till here today... Happy belated Valentine's Day!
Baby It's You - Rick Price
You and I, we were best of friends like a sister,
To a brother
Never entered my mind at that time we could mean more
To each other
But love has come to change my point of view...
And now..
(Chorus)
You are my one and only,
I swear it's true
Baby it's you,
Baby it's true
You know my heart beats only
Because of you
Baby it's true
Baby it's you
Ah... It's you
Couldn't believe after all of this time that a love could grow,
Baby now I know
All I needed was right by my side, gonna let it show
Never let you go
Now you're a part of everything I do...
Oh baby...
(Chorus)
You and I will go on and on and never fade away
Together we belong forever baby,
Love will stay
You know my heart belongs to you
You're part of everything I do
You know my heart belongs to you
(You know my heart belongs to you)
(Chorus)
(Though this writer may disappoint those looking for Leon's literary flair with which he describes his wacky life in such a flowing manner.)
Ressurected from a dormant state... =) I guess Vday was reason enuff to warrant it...
Well... the better part of it was spent roaming the sidewalks of the bustling city area with my friend... going from shopping centre to shopping centre in quest of a present for later use =P Call it last minute shopping if you have to... But I did get the job done =) Managed to lay my hands on a smaller replica of myself (a teddy bear. Just in case anyone thought I cloned myself.), and some roses at an affordable, non-cutthroat price... Met some friends (and their respective significant others) on the streets as well... great trip overall =)
Ah well... the shopping part was concluded by a trip to Tampines cos I didn't have anywhere to go 'cept tag along with my friend who went to look for her friend... and at Tampines of all places, when we were to head back to town later... negotiations with that friend to meet in town instead obviously didn't go quite well -_-" So well... Tampines... ate at Yoshinoya... ate crepe... walked around like some mindless zombie (not mention having to endure the amplified crappiness of not one, but TWO craptalkers... the horror... THE HORROR!!!), then headed back to town... Talk about a HUGE waste of time... in the end... when I ended up back in town... I was left with around 10 minutes or so to stick around before having to head East again -_-
Well, shall write till here today... Happy belated Valentine's Day!
Baby It's You - Rick Price
You and I, we were best of friends like a sister,
To a brother
Never entered my mind at that time we could mean more
To each other
But love has come to change my point of view...
And now..
(Chorus)
You are my one and only,
I swear it's true
Baby it's you,
Baby it's true
You know my heart beats only
Because of you
Baby it's true
Baby it's you
Ah... It's you
Couldn't believe after all of this time that a love could grow,
Baby now I know
All I needed was right by my side, gonna let it show
Never let you go
Now you're a part of everything I do...
Oh baby...
(Chorus)
You and I will go on and on and never fade away
Together we belong forever baby,
Love will stay
You know my heart belongs to you
You're part of everything I do
You know my heart belongs to you
(You know my heart belongs to you)
(Chorus)