Well... The holidays have come... Yet I'm in no mood for enjoyment, for just days before the school term came to a close, I had to be reminded of things I didn't really want to think about.
A recurring problem that has had me losing hope.
And a choice that I must make... and soon.
I just finished Season 3 of Smallville... This show has a compelling storyline... and to see how each character deals with their problems... really makes it shine. I can easily relate to many of the obstacles that they face... One of which... is Lana's wait for Clark to finally come clean, and get together, with her. In a way, I guess my problem is akin to what Lana is facing. Everytime I thought it was ok... Reality proved otherwise. And each time it happened, my spirit dampened, and my will broke.
Now... I've grown apathetic to the problem... Just like how Lana gave up on Clark... kinda. It's definitely not good at all, but I'm finding less and less of a reason to actually try, and thus... I'm leaving it in the hands of others... including the One up above...
My Immortal - Evanescence
I'm so tired of being here
Supressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone
These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time can not erase
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me
You used to captivate me by your resonating light
Now I'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts my once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away all the sanity in me
These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time can not erase
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me
I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me
I've been alone all along
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me